Ode to 3 cm

Today i had a 3 cm problem... I tend to get very crazy about a lot of little things, but this time it got over my head. What are 3 cm? well, if you have them nothing, if you don't... than that's another story. I think you are wondering what the hell I'm talking about... it's very simple, i had 3 cm missing, from a sheet of paper, if i would have been more careful i would have had them, but because i am tired and sick and in a hurry i cut them off. It resulted into a very bad reaction from a teacher and a very bad feeling for me. Moments like this make me want to quit... this school, this life and just leave around the world and lose myself. Unfortunately( maybe i will think fortunately tomorrow) i am no quitter. This is the part where usually i feel full with ambition, to show them how good i can be, but i start to think that whatever you do they will always think ill of you. For God sake! it was a school project and there were 3 cm missing from the paper and i might fail this thing because of them... Is it fair i wonder? Details... details... Who's right? Who's wrong? Well the truth must somewhere in the middle... as usual...

Dezamagire

E sentimentul acela care iti intoarce stomacul pe dos si apoi se raspandeste in tot corpul sub forma de fiori reci, ca sa ajunga mai apoi langa pupile si iris sub forma de apa.
Dezamagirea cu D mare apare atunci cand ratezi cu brio un examen,o slujba, o viata, cand te bazezi pe cineva si n-ar fi trebuit, cand visezi prea mult si realitatea e alta, cand ai vazut in cineva un prieten si iti trebuiau ochelari, cand ai incredere prea multa in oameni in general.
M-am apucat sa scriu asa aiurea niste definitii cretine, dar uzuale. Le stim toti, ca doar le folosim frecvent ca sa dezamagim... dar de data asta eu am picat in propria capcana, m-am dezamagit pe mine si ca bonus am primit cadou dezamagiri din partea celorlalti. Incluse in multi pack au mai fost: nervi nelimitati, vise spulberate si ganduri negre. In plus, daca am cumparat pachetul acum am primit si celalalt mare D: Disperarea...
Sunt predestinata sa adun toate D-urile negative: Deziluzie, Despartire, Dambla, Drama, Dezechilibru, Datorie, Decadenta, Deceptie(ruda cu cel de mai sus), Dezarticulare, Divagatie, Divizare, Dracesc... exemplele pozitive imi scapa.
D.

Arhitectura bat-o vina!

Am predat un proiect si detin in acest moment 5 nopti dormite iepureste, o pereche de ochi rosii o stare de discomfort, o lipsa de energie, niste ganduri tare aiurea plus ceva vedenii cu care vorbesc cand ma apuca plictiseala.
Ochii mi s-au rostogolit pe covor si privesc sub pat si in sfarsit imi gasesc balsamul de buze si o adeverinta pierdute acum o saptamana.
Majoritatea muschilor mi s-au atrofiat (au ramas cei de la degete,ochi si gat) ma transform in fiinta perfecta pentru lucru la calculator, fara ganduri si dorinte proprii.
Avand in vedere starea sublima in care ma aflu m-am gandit sa-mi fac blog. Era imperativ necesar, pentru ca am ajuns sa vorbesc prea mult si fara rost, ca orice om care isi pierde viata sociala pentru o saptamana de stat cu ochii in calculator non-stop. Vorbeam in special singura si mi s-a parut grav, asa ca m-am gandit sa ma tratez asa... sa mai vorbeasca si altii singuri cu mine.